To the lowest depths I dive, running away from my mind. An endless loss following keeping me awake at night. Constant pain as a reminder that the past can't be repeated. Withered, broken, no lesson learned. Dragging myself into the dirt. Paradise exists within my dreams, as I relive the love that I've seen. My eyes awake to a fearful sight, my world of color, now grey and white. Yesterday repeats over and over when I try to shut my eyes. My heart turns colder and colder, as I watch all the light die. Instead of letting myself hit the bottom, the hate that I've held deep propelling.